Letting Go and Sadness

I’ve been writing a lot about letting go and releasing control; this is definitely easier said than done. If you’re anything like me the amount of change that has been going on personally and otherwise has been mind-boggling. With all the changes letting go is par for the course, and it doesn’t always feel good!

Photo by Eric Zhu

As we all go through these changes and are sometimes forced to let go frustration and sadness may come up. Even if it’s changes we know are for our best good! Even if it’s changes we initiate! It’s okay to feel anger, sadness, grief, or even depression. These feelings are a part of life and if not felt and moved through can create longer mental and physical health issues. Of course it is important to seek help if these feelings get too heavy, but going through periods of down time is healthy and completely natural.

"It's okay to feel anger, sadness, grief, or even depression."

I have been feeling sad for the past week or so and was really in it last Monday and felt called to write a poem. As many of you probably know art is a great way to process heavy emotions. Afterwards I wanted to share it but questioned whether anyone would want to hear it. I didn’t know how or when to share and I knew my life coaching blog was not the place to share such negative feelings.

"I have been feeling sad for the past week or so and was really in it last Monday and felt called to write a poem."

Then I reconsidered, why shouldn’t I be able to share all parts of myself, even the not so pretty ones? This is a part of my reality as I’m shifting into a new version of myself. Ultimately I didn’t feel authentic only sharing my expansive and excited self. Hiding difficult emotions is a past pattern of mine that is not helpful to myself or others. It prevents connection and can ostracize people going through heavy emotions.

"Hiding difficult emotions is a past pattern of mine that is not helpful to myself or others."

So, in honor of stepping into a fuller version of myself I’d like to share this short, sad, poem. Enjoy!

Let Me Just Be

(To listen rather than read click here)

Can’t I just be sad?

Feel the rainy day outside, and inside

Coming down in my brain

To meet the moist grass that is waiting to be greened

Waiting to be seen

Will it get better?

I wait

I excavate

But really all I need to do is rest

And flow through this mess

Captivating and integrating

Until it all just turns to dust

No shiny objects, just formless forms

Seeping around the cracks

Let me be heavy, let me be grief, let me just be